cleaning up

Finally my room is all cleaned up. I was shocked at the amount of garbage frm my room. Didn't realise i got tat much rubbish in the room too. The torn sofa has gone and another smaller sofa has come in to take its place. The smaller sofa doesn't allow me to lie down on it, or else my legs will be dangling by the sides. most of the notes are gone. books gone. files goes into boxes, dunno when to be revealed again.

the interesting thing abt packing my room is tat i wld find some 'treasures', some dating as long as back to my pri sch days. first is a old telephone book. in those days, there were no hp and thus my frens number were all kept in this small little book. still in the 7 digit era. and while i was going thru the names, i realise i haven see a lot of them in such a long time. the good thing is tat i still remember who these ppl are. and i think most of those numbers are no longer valid. glad there wld be a gathering for 6A'98 on 5 dec. wow! it has been 6 yrs since i graduated frm pri sch. i still miss those days. eager to see those whom i have not seen for a long time.

then it moved on to sec sch. another phase of my life. was looking thru those magazines published by the sch. called montage. flipping thru them made me recall so much. those carefree days in sec 1 and 2. how me, yz, jinhui and kenneth used to hang out. (i found a old pic of kenneth btw, think it was taken during one of our project session, still remember it was supposed to be for l***a.) then i found my costume for the sec 2 lit project. still remember i was the carafare who had only 2 lines throughout the whole scene. had linlin, xuanwei, joyce, yz and daniel. Those sessions i remember were spent mostly slacking around and in the end we still got things done. then on to sec 3 n 4. realise i haven met benjamin n eddie for a damm long time. realise tat i was much of a mugger last time, and now i became a bloody slacker. then on to np. came through the box where all my badges were in. though sometimes days in np sucks, but i wld say i learnt a lot of things frm it. looking back at some of my sec sch work (i still had some around), i was so grossed out by my work, esp my english.

now all these things are cleared up, all organised. room is now neat and clean. the shelves look rather empty though. gonna go shopping for a drawer to put all my cd collection. been piaing vcd like siao loh. so hooked onto the show. think i can finish it tmr. dunno what else to watch after tat. gonna to nua at home these few days liao. still dunno whether to go for both days of chalet.

cheapo cds

after a levels, it has been rotting slacking and so on. haha. enjoying the last few days of my civilian life. oh dear! i told myself to accept it and go in with an open mind, but i just can't stop thinking abt it. makes me so sian now.

went to watch the shutter yesterday with yz. the theatre was damm packed. and of course a complement to horror show wld be screaming ladies. siao zah boh! got ghost scream. no ghost also scream. the movie wasn't tat scary, but after tat, it is kinda creepy. imagine a ghost sitting on ur shoulders. so if got neck ache then maybe ....... movie also tells us one thing, dun do anything wrong, esp harm to other ppl. and the photos used in the movie are actually true photos of contributed by ppl. creepy. esp the class photo one. so ppl, look carefully at the class photo and may find someone extra...

went out again today to rot with tee wei and peishan. first we went to chinatown to buy my cheapo cd. bought JS cd and jacky cheung black and white. $6 only. too bad their zhang dong liang cd got no cheap one, but still cheaper than cd stores at $15. but i think i wait until china comes out with the cd and got ppl import into sg. and oh ya, we walked past a stall that has a sign tat is so funny! the 'shou ji' (handphone) and the 'ji' is written as the chicken ji. so damm amusing. actually we wanted to take a photo, but too many ppl there. we then ate at chinatown market and we actually walked past clarke quay and all the way to suntec. amazing at how much we walked. while walking past clarke quay, i saw many women and i feel tat they look like transvasite. their built is comparable to a man. and their face?? freaky. got to talk a lot today. yeah. had a great time with them. but somtimes our conversation swayed too political. then i wld be blur liao. haha

other than going out, would be staying at home watching 'chong shang yun xiao' a hong kong drama. watching the show makes me even want to be a pilot. what was said in the show is true. the feeling of flying freely in the sky is incredible. although it is a tough job, i think it wld really be worth it. how nice if i cld have a job where i cld fly everywhere, visiting lots of places. then got lots of pretty stewardess around, then can .... u know.... joking! i am not tat causal. or maybe being a steward also not bad. haha. see first lah. finish uni then decide. back to the show, i am getting all so excited abt it. and did i mention the set? it was shot at hkg airport and the airport is so damm nice. i am so amazed by the architecture. even their staff complex looks so damm grand and modern. wld mind working in such an environment. definitely beat changi hands down! and oh ya, if tee didn't cancel the trip, i wld have been in hong kong now. maybe sleeping in hotel, or out in the streets somewhere..... sianzzz

over over over!

A levels are finally over! happy? yes! no more mugging. the thought of not doing any sch work for 2 yrs is so so.. i dunno how to describe. but i think cannot dun do anything. if not my brain will get rusty when i get to uni. the design paper was like so straightforward and easy. i finished it in like 45 min, all the while grinning down there. the thought of everything will finally be over is all over my head. everyone is so happy also loh. ok. no more talk abt a levels. shall wait until next yr when the results are out.

went to sim lim with yingxuan after the papers. she looking for rechargable battery. i also looked around for digital cam. couldn't bear to look much loh. no $$ to buy. saw so many things i want to buy. want to buy a laptop. a thumb drive. saw a 1GB thumbdrive. not forgetting my sony cybershot cam. wait until my MD rots, i gonna get a ipod. so many things to work towards in 2 yrs. so i shall start planning my financial account in order to get these things. also as i was telling xuan, a trip to bangkok before going into uni to stock up my wardrobe. i am so looking forward to the end of my NS. in the meantime, just bear with it.

rented some vcd to watch at home. shld be rotting at home these few days. i am very much a home person, so it wld be perfectly fine for me to stay home. plus cleaning up of my room. it is in total chaos right now. and the amount of dust in my room is horrible. dunno where those dust came from when my room windows are like shut for almost the whole day.

haha. i am feeling damm high now!

another paper down. a levels are unofficially over. considering there is nothing to mug for design tmr. bloody hell. still have to go to school at 2pm for a stupid 1 hr paper. Think the paper today was only ok. Think it wld be a B for my phy.

went to Tan tock seng hospital to visit kaining after the papers. terence came also too. bought some chicken essence for her. she looked well. not like last week where her face was like so pale. the doctor said she could not be discharged yet, cause her blood platet level still haven rise. so poor thing. have to do exam with a drip on her hand. draw blood everyday. and she doesn't have any extra time to do her papers. think the invigilator shld have given her some extra time. end up we were just toking cock down there. went over to novena for lunch and then took the long long train ride home. went to lot 1 with ying xuan and pei ling. they were checking out the prices to rebond, highlight, cut their hair. whatever. talked a lot with them too. and i am dreading the thought tat i will be in tekong in 2 weeks time. just 14 days!! just sianz! think i gonna camp at home with some vcds. enjoy the last 2 weeks of my civilian life!

i just realise the wonders of retail theraphy. was so tempted into buying a cd just now and i was thinking. i feel damm good whenever i bought a cd or something else. too bad the money i am spending is not mine. i am actually looking forward to earning my own $$.

woohoo! econs is finally over! don't expect to do well for the paper though. but hu cares. like what i had said before. i dun have high hopes. as long as i cld get a decent enough grade to get into uni course, then tat's it. I saw the geography course at NUS and i think i wld want to go for it. geography is definitely my fav subject and sometimes i wonder if i shld have taken geog at a levels. the only thing holding me back frm geog was tat i did not take pure geog at o levels. didn't have much chioce back then. if i take pure geog, then i wld have to take SS with history. i hate history. but the later batches get to offer SS with e-lit. damm! if they offered elective lit back then in my yr, then i cld take pure geog. now i saw the newspapers tat they are offering SS with c-lit. 2 entirely diff subject?? one in el one in cl. will feel so damm strange. and frm yr 2006, students will be able to use electronic dictionary in exams!!! WTH!! it wld speed up the writing process a lot loh! and it will make it damm easy lah. just key in the hanyu pinyin and then u get the word. oh man. all the changes to the education system.

ok. 2 more papers to go. 1 more to mug for. think design no need to study one lah. and poor kaining is currently stuck in the hospital. down with dengue fever. it is like so 'lucky', getting it during the a levels period. and she got s-paper this week also. hope it wld affect her too much, cause her grades are really good. shld be visiting her tmr after phy. hope she wld get well by then.

the exterior construction for my flat is currently right outside my flat. yesterday afternoon was abosulte horror. the were drilling the tiles right outside my flat. and the sound is so damm load and i cld feel the ground and wall shake. used the radio to cover up the noise and i endedup with such a bad headache. why this period out of all the period. stupid!

this is so funny

After numerous rounds of "We don't even know if Osama is still alive",Osama himself decided to send George W a letter in his own handwriting to let him know he was still in the game. Bush opened the letter and it appeared to contain a coded message: 370HSSV-0773H. Bush was baffled, so he typed it out and emailed it to Colin Powell. Colin and his aides had no clue either so they sent it to the CIA. No one could solve it so it went to the NSA and then to MIT, NASA and the Secret Service. Eventually they asked Britain's MI6 for help.

They called the White House:"Tell the President he is looking at the message upside down."

当你孤单你会想起谁 - 张栋梁

你的心情总在飞什么事都要去追
想抓住一点安慰
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味
你的心那么脆,一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑

但是天总会黑,人总要离别
谁也不能永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味,谁都要面对
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫

当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回

The Incredibles!

seriously sick of studying today. so went to watch The Incredibles! it was really incredible! love the movie. The story plot was heart warming. the graphics were so real. the things in the movie amazes me. I wld strongly recommend the movie! love some characters. esp jack jack the baby. the last part when he turned into a devil was so funny! plus tat edna. she reminds me of tat econs lecturer (phyllis chia i think). think they look almost alike. love the part where elasticgirl became a raft and dash was kicking his legs in the water to propell it. hope the movie cld be longer.

my econs is in deep shit. after doing some mcq on tys, i realise tat my results were absolute horrible!

SM??

today's challenge on survivor is definitely one of the best among all the season. one member frm each team has their hand tied together and them linked onto a ring that runs along a rope. the rope then runs thru several obstacle course and other members have to help tat person to get over. so funny to see eliza and julie being tossed abt like nobody business.

some pics


this looks so SM.

and this

Eliza looked like she had just been raped

and i think this is the best! julie being dragged across the pole like a pig!


see. i am so bored.......

spolit brat??

the showdown i have been wanting to see, olinda vs taufik is all gone. olinda got booted instead of sylvester. all thanks to those crazy girls voting for him. actually he ain't tat bad, but he just sucked at yesterday's show. esp when he sing tat phantom of the opera song, it makes me cringe!

today me and my mum went to fetch my grandma from my first uncle house to my 3rd uncle house. cause no one is at home to look after my grandma. we took a cab and this cab driver was really one who crapped so much shit. he asked me if i had been thru ns, then i told him not yet, end of this yr. then he went on to talk a lot of cock abt his son blah blah blah, then he said, "i think you will surely not be albe to get used to life in NS. inside have to be very independent. i see you, i think u haven even wash a cup before" I was like WTF? perhaps he think i was some rich man son as we boarded the cab at my uncle hse, which is a semi d. i ain't no spoilt brat !! I washed things that are beyond just a little cup. haha. i didn't even bother to reply to him for the rest of the journey. luckily it was just a short journey.

woohoo! the toughest of the a levels for me is finally over! 3 papers consecutively. the stress level is definitely there. econs was total flop. the questions tat came out were not those i had expected. at least maths paper 2 was easy. praying hard for A. then for today phy, the MCQ is so freaking easy, at least compared to nj standard. but i cld do almost all qns. but paper 2 seriously sucked. esp the data analysis qn. don't even know wat the fuck it is abt. but hu cares? it's over. shld be able to do ok for tat. if really do badly, cannot go uni, then after i ORD then decide lah.

the fact tat i am going to ns soon seems to be looming over me. it's just 3 weeks away. of course i have fears abt it. don't really know how it wld be like. will i get along with ppl? will i be albe to make any close friends? can i cope with the training? so many doubts....

Encore!

Today as my grandma mother. my mum side one. all my grandmothers birthday fall so close together. just 2 weeks ago is grandma frm dad side. so we had a bbq at my uncle's hse. now my voice seems half gone. must be the heaty food and all the toking cock with my cousins. i realise tat i am indeed closer to cousins frm my mother side. perhaps it is because we stay near to each other, unlike my dad side, where my cousins are in beijing. so back to the bbq. we had damm lots of food. we all ate till our fill. the chicken wings were in fact horrible at first due to the fire, but towards the end, when the heat is enough, we dun have anymore chao tah chicken wings. i ate till my stomach almost burst. tat's my nature. so much leftover, waste food leh. then continue to eat loh. those tat can be 'da bao' are all being 'da bao' by everyone.

damm. there have been so many gd albums out recently. dun have money to buy all. today i bought S.H.E new album Encore. and damm, Hebe look so freaking chio in the album. so 'shu nu' look. so lady-like.never knew she cld carry tat image. then they got a file as free gift and she looks so cute. ohhh! i like her so much liao. always tot selina is the chioest one, but not, it is Hebe! the song 'hou niao' is nice, soothing. composed by jay chou. the 2nd song 'tong kuai' is so rock. like superstar. and the 3rd song 'bie shuo dui bu qi' is a cover of britney's Everytime. don't like their version. and in fact the version i liked was the one when britney sang it on 'saturday night live'. even the album one was so bland.and there is more album. zhou chuan xiong new album is also out. decide to download it. plus there is jolin's new album. also downloaded. and zhang jing xuan album. also download. next yr cannot download liao. see how hard they come down on ppl first. if cannot then have to buy loh. think what my fren once told me is rite. tat i spend most my money on food and CDs.

2 more days to exam. think i am not gonna study much tmr either. totally screwed for phy. have not touched phy for a damm damm long time. and ya, tmr there is charlie's angel. damm, surely will not be albe to study tmr...

karma

i have been trying to study statistics but failed. the rather successful maths paper yesterday indeed spured me on to work harder. due to me waking up in the unearthly hrs in the morning, i was dead on bed until dinner time. and then i was totally pissed off by my parents. they woke me up for dinner and when i got out of the room, dinner was not even cooked yet. nvm. i was not feeling well, so i just ate a little and went back to my room. then my father accused me of being picky in food, say i dun want to eat. somehow he piss my mum off and she came to piss me off. tat's when i snapped. i just lashed back at her. wat a joke, when i want to eat, they keep telling me dun eat, so fat alreadly eat. when i dun feel like eating, they keep forcing me to eat. how ironic huh. oh wtf. forget abt it. sometimes i wonder how come they just can't leave me alone. yes, to them i will always be their child, but i am grown up now, i need a little freedom and privacy. sometimes i really feel like killing them when they keep walking in and out of my room. hello! i need some time of my own.

just now, or rather yesterday's charmed was talking abt karma. do u believe in karma? i strongly believe in it. if one does a lot of good in his life, he will be protected. the bad will have to pay for what they have done. seriously, everyone one of us will have done wrong things in our life, it is jus whether it is just mild mistake or a grave mistake and the retribution one receive will of course be greater is he does more bad. just wondering, will ur karma carry on to ur next life. let say one does a lot of good in this life, will his next life be very blessed even if he is going to be a big bad bastard the next life. just wondering...

I am up at some unearthly hrs again. was so shagged after maths paper tat i went home and fell onto bed and sleep. woohoo! another paper is over. maths paper 1. glad tat the paper was actually quite easy. only got a little cock up with the function qns. and the general solution qns also. just realise it when i got home. plus the first part of complex no. other than tat shld be no problem loh. praying for a A. hope paper 2 goes well also. i was rather happy after the paper, knowing tat i cld do the MI qn and i go the correct ans for the vector qn and the odd number 5 qns, which i spent like 15 min on tat bloody qn, fearing tat there cld be some trick somewhere or wat.

went to ajisen at lot 1 for dinner with yz. he was quite sian diao, knowing tat he got some mistake, but it is only a few parts wat, still can get some marks lah. dun worry. feeling sick after eating the ramen. last time after i ate the ramen, i had a damm bad flu. i didn't believe it was the ramen. now leh, been blowing my nose non stop...

today while on 171, i passed by bukit timah and then at near beauty world there, i saw some police car with the forensic truck. then i commented to yz, eh, someone got killed izit? true enough, there was some sort of robbery there. Apparently a man tried to rob the bank and he was shot by the guards. to think he used a toy gun loh. duh! and why wld anyone try to rob a bank alone? surely will not be successful one. want to rob whole gang go rob wat, like what we see in HK show. how desperate ppl can get for money....

still comtemplating whether i shld go back to nj to study. in fact, i haven been back to sch except for papers. while ppl are desperating looking for teachers for consultation, there i am at home stoning away at the notes. well, goes to show tat i am very clear of all the concept and i need no help izit? rubbish! oh well, see how later...

rain rain rain

I am hoping tat it will rain cats and dogs now. so that the construction work on my blk wld stop and i cld have a peaceful time to sleep. the past few days afternoon have been raining, so i have enjoyed days of peace. i need to sleep. woke up damm early today.

and yes GP is over! one paper down. 3 more subjects, 7 more papers to go! surprisingly the GP compre was rather easy, except for AQ. didn't have much time for AQ, but the qns in front were managable. hope essay wld be ok too. I did qn 6 "Is recycling the answer to the problem of waste?" hope i did tackle the diff types of waste.

went to raintree to collect our invitation 'card' for PA seniors farewell. it is not really a card. the made a box which is actually a speaker. thanks a lot man! they sure put in lots of effort into doing the thing. hope the farewell wld be fun. and it is on 3rd dec, on the last day of chalet. if we are going over after chalet, think a lot of us gonna K.O. in sch.

went to lot 1 with yz and yewchwan. tat yz dua kang, at first try to bluff me tat yj is on bus. then it turns out she is really on the bus lah. he still talking abt not asking her out for lunch. u think i dare to ask meh? she will go meh? but really, who knows....

for once on sgidol, i liked daphne singing. she sang you gotta be by desree and she did it well. the first time i didn't find her whiny sound tat irritating. RnB is realy THE nite! they did well, except for sylvester rock your body. oh man! it gave me goosebumps! so yucks!

i seriously need to sleep liao. my eyes are half open. just waiting for the drilling to stop. fuck man! drill and drill during this exam period. fuck loh. want to drill cannot drill next yr meh? it is so fucking stupid loh. they just drill and remove the tiles from the slanted wall outside the flat, then just paint it over?? never even replace the tiles. can't they just leave them alone? or at least put back the tiles? think the town council have too much money to spend. still collect so much from us. and they are painting the wall when it was been like only 3 or 4 yrs. the paint still looks ok. oh btw, the current colour scheme sucks and they are still going with the same colour. still prefer the brown look when we just moved in. ok, enough of the swearing, just tat all the drilling is driving me a little insane. my radio is blasting away right now too. rain rain come quickly. gonna pray for rain. come on, let it RAIN!!!!! RAIN!!!! RAIN!!!!

Again i am up at some unearthly hours. Slept early and end up waking up super early at 4am. It has been raining like crazy these few days. Feeling cold and miserable again. GP is in 4 days time and i think i am starting to freak out only this week. and it is like the A's are so close alreadly. Others have been panicking weeks back and i am still yaya papaya then. ppl like yz is alreadly panicking and so stressed out loh. at least i got into mugging mood these few days. 26 more days to go!!!

Went out to celebrate my grandmother birthday yesterday. went to the 'no signboard' restaurant at west coast to have dinner. Food wise was ok loh. i wasn't having a good appetite then and i just ate a little. too lazy to deshell the crab so i decided to give it a miss. my 2 younger cousins were busy taking photographs. talk abt rich ppl huh. one is like only 10 yrs old and he is holding a 1000 dollar plus cam on his hand and the other only 2 yrs younger was holding another digital cam, those professional type, clicking away like nobody business. tat's my uncle. everything also each son have one. rich ppl lifestyle, not like me, the poor guy who could not even afford a cheap digital cam. been so tempted to go get one cam during the promotion but mum says buy alreadly also no use. well, ok loh. this cld well be the last time i have gotten something frm her, since i am going to have my own pay next yr. slavery in fact. so much for just a mere few hundred dollars. ok, i shouldn't be complaining, there are ppl who earn less than tat. be content with what you have.

my back is huring again. been sitting down at my desk too much i think. either really studying or just plain stoning or staring at the comp screen. yest after dinner and sitting down for too long, i couldn't even walk properly. i can't imagine getting a desk job in future and sitting down in the office for hrs. hmm, tat's not the life i want, but i wld not want to be slaving our in the sun all day either.

the tv in my room is officially screwed. For the past few mths, i have to hammer the tv for the screen to appear properly, then yesterday, i hammer the tv, the screen is still blank and after my constant abuse, it finally broke down. oh heck! my dad says it is a sign for me to concentrate on my studies. went to giant yest to see if there is cheap tv, but it is temp out of stock.

downloaded yanzi new album yesterday. been using another program emule and it is good! i am too cheapo to go buy her album. i like her songs in the album. songs like wo de ai, ben, zhong, let's vino. shall wait for a while to see if i shld go and buy her album. i am contemplating buying as SHE wld be coming out with a new album in nov. if i buy and buy, then wld be broke liao loh. and sometimes i wonder if buying CD are a waste of money. yz also say tat i buy too much cd liao. average of one per month. thinking back, could be quite a lot. i alreadly downloaded a lot alreadly loh, if i were to buy those downloaded one, it wld burn a big hole in my pocket. what i feel is tat after a few yrs, if i were to take out these CD and listen to them, browse thru them, it cld bring back gd memories. somehow i cld link songs with part of my life. like when listening to yes933 fm 'jing dian ge qu jiu jian huan' , i could remember the days where i was exposed to music way back in pri 5/6. during tat period, i start to listen to music, buy my first ever CD. still remember it was a spice girls album. and since then my collection have grew. wonder how it wld be like when i am old in the future and listening to these tracks. i wld continue to buy, in moderate amts. hehe. and the song 'wo de ai' is so so so good. and the mtv is so damm well shot. yanzi in paris. what a romantic city..

was browsing thru the net and i found this news. apparently a FA with delta was reported to be sacked as she had put up pic of her in uniform on her blog. talk abt be careful with what u put online. ridiculous and funny though. maybe in fact she did violate company policies. here's her blog http://queenofsky.journalspace.com/. funny how she call herself 'queen of the sky' and there are a lot of pics of her. some ridiculously weird though. plus she is not tat chio also lah. in fact i burst out laughing at some of her quotes. resembles a typical bimbo FA. In fact i am wondering if i shld go be a FA for a few yrs. can travel around the world for free. i wld really want to see the world. but the thought of having to serve ppl irks me. well, serving ppl coffee and tea is not exactly me. but for the perks, i may comtemplate. and also it wld mean if i wld get into good shape a few yrs later. the first criteria wld be to 'look GOOD'. considering the me now, i am way far from tat. shall see abt it .....

what a long post. thinking whether to go back to sch, cause i have to iron my uniform....

我的爱 - 孙燕姿

绕着上路 走的累了 去留片刻 要如何取舍
前年捡的 美丽贝壳 心不透彻 不会懂多难得

以为只要简单的生活 就能平息了脉搏 却忘了在逃什么

我的爱 明明还在 转身了才明白
该把幸福 找回来 而不是各自缅怀
我会在 沿海地带 等着潮汐更改 送你回来
你走路姿态 微笑的神态 见你是曾错过的 真爱

以为只要简单的生活 就能平息了脉搏 却忘了在逃什么

我的爱 明明还在 转身了才明白
该把幸福 找回来 而不是各自缅怀
我会在 沿海地带 等着潮汐更改 送你回来
你走路姿态 微笑的神态 见你是曾错过的 真爱

莫非这是上天善意的安排 好让心更坚定 彼此更接近 真爱

我的爱 明明还在 转身了才明白
该把幸福 找回来 而不是各自缅怀
我会在沿海地带 等着潮汐更改 试着忍耐
不再怕伤害 不再怕期待 见你时那才是我真爱
你走路姿态 微笑的神态 亲你时那才是我真爱