this week is the start of the military phase of our course. Not much military stuff for us svc medic though. first of all, we dun have to draw arms. what a great relief. it is super 'leh ceh' to draw arms. have to draw n send every day, then have to clean rifle, not to mention the rifle in your way when doing stuff. we did a practice on war time casualty aid and we had to assess the casualty while proning down. it was difficult. not to mention the MOP which is in the way, and of course the rifle. fuck sian. a lot of tests coming up. what pharmacology test, preventive medicine test, think got military PAM test also. siao liao siao liao...

spent almost the entire of yest sleeping. woke up in the morning, intending to go out. but aaron and derek last min 'fly aeroplane', then left me n jc only. go kbox 2 person also damm sian. so i thought, forget it, just stay at home n sleep. and i slept the whole afternoon, considering tat i had alrealdly slept so much the night before. it was really a long awaited sleep. a really good one. i feel so refreshed after this sleep. dunno why, at SMM, i can never seem to get enough sleep. i am alreadly the earliest to sleep in my bunk, and normally by 10 pm i collapse alrealdy. but still, always feel sleepy, but still managed to stay awake during lesson and sometimes only absorbing only 50% during boring lectures. my mind will just drift away.

managed to watch jue dui superstar this weekend. so surprised wei chong got kicked out. thought he is one of the better ones. then the girls, thought silver's jiu shi ai sucks. it was really totally off key and she can't dance for god sake. but i find her getting better looking by the day. she got tat dimples that are really cute. the best is still kelly. the sweetest girl look. woohoo! i prefer her with her hair down, in tat way, she look more natural chio.

i am thinking of taking up driving. not going to driving centre though. the charges are too damm ex. thinking of going private. the fees, as heard from my frens, are much lower. But the thing is i am not sure of where to find a good instructor and not some instructor tat want to rip ur wallet. and also, to be able to learn, i have to be fianically capable. depending on the pathetic 350 pay i am gettng ain't gonna get me anywhere. looking for any tuition lobang now. no choice but to sacrifice a little bit of my weekend time. anyone got driving or tuition lobang , inform me can?? thanks!

IV terror

another IV terror again this week. kena poked 4 times in total this week. this time using the 16G needle, which is so much bigger than the 20G we used to use. dunno why SAF must use such a big needle. to imagine how big it is, it is just sligtly smaller than a yakult straw. u can even drink from the needle. i had so much trouble with IV this week. my first try, got backflow of blood, everything was successful until i start to push the catheter into the vein. somehow the catheter got out of the vein and i had to redo my IV. 2 more unsuccessful try, where i cannot find the vein. then i finally got it on my last try, but tat was after some 'topo', which is moving the needle around to find the vein. then when khairi did his IV on mine, he poked through the valve in my vein and tat was fucking painful!!!! so people, next time if anyone screw up the IV on you, pls do not blame them. this really requires a lot of experience to be able to do a good job. and i am immune to all sorts of needle pain liao i think. poke ah, poke loh.

then this week is our test week also. end of our paramedic level. means i am officially cleared to save people on the street. the test wasn't as difficult as i think. perhaps i was lucky to get an easy case study. just breathing distress. andre got spinal management and i was the buddy. tat one more jia lat. spend a lot a lot of time on it. luckily didn't screw up the spinal one. the platoon is gonna be so damm small liao loh. the scdf ppl and the dental orderly finish course liao. going to start combat phase. they say we service ppl will just go there and observe and if possible join in. of course i want to join in lah. sit down there watch will be damm boring. one more month left for the course. yeh!!! but sad thing is tat no more nights out liao. this week alreadly no nights out.

Yeah. Another week have passed. This week, as usual lah, all lessons lessons lessons. got practical test on thu. have to do all the bandaging, burns, haemorrhage. luckily they gave me the injuries that i am confident of. then there was IV on fri, which turned into disater. tat 'dear' buddy of mine, dunno what happened to him, made me suffer 2 IV, and both resutled in haematoma, where the area on both my hands were swelled up, the left hand one being worse. but the IV session was indeed very rushed cause there was a CO talk coming up later tat day, which is to talk about the death cases in SAF in the past month. there have been 5 deaths in SAF in just one month, which is like one per week. It was indeed shocking to hear tat people had died, esp one after another in weeks. i think it might have caused some worries among the people and tat he kept stressing that the death has nothing to do with the system of SAF, and that the deaths are all caused by human factors. Perhaps some sort of curse has hit the SAF and i certainly hope there wld be no more of such cases. It has also remined me to learn my stuff properly and not to be some fucked up medic in future. talking abt fucked up, my IV skills still sucks. if i am given a hand with obvious vein, i can do it, but if given a vein that i cannot see properly, i wld be damm worried. my topo skills still sucks, and i always need guidance to find the vein. think the patients kena by me next time can call themselves damm suay.

another big hoha case this week would be the NKF saga. I had always think that NKF is being to commercialised and the way it had asked for donation is too aggressive. seeing the way cao qi tai is 'begging' for donations just simply turns me off. not that we shouldn't help these needy patients, but i can't stand his way of asking for money. now that the truth is out, with NKF citing false claims, many people would naturally feel they have been cheated, including me. In fact, i too agree that durai's pay is too freaking high, and wat's up with that 12 months bonus?? What i feel is that if he is really out to help these patients, would he require such a big pay?? such a big bonus?? these money can be channeled to the needy. not tat he doesnt' deserve a high pay (he is the CEO) after all, but a 12 months bonus (of such a great amt of money) is just absurd. now that people are asking for their money back, i also wonder the intention of the donors. do people donate just for the sake of the prizes or are they really willing to help the needy. so it is back to the topic on the way they generate donations. by using prizes to attract calls, they seem to be telling the users "come, call this number and you will stand to win whatever whatever whatever..." i wonder if people really do know the significance of their donation. I dare to say if i do donate, it would always be right from my heart, to help the needy, and not for the sake of the prize. the prize is just a bonus, which i strongly believe i dun have the luck to get it. Helping others is always good, esp when there are so many people out there with lives much worse than me. it is like CIP, i never did CIP for the sake of getting the hours, but i did it for the sake of helping others. i would have wanted to take part in more of such jobs, but shortage of time has prevented me from doing so. i admit i am selfish, i still want some time to myself, so i had never sort of sacrificed my remaining free time to help out, but deep down inside me, i wanted to help out. it is a conflicting feeling. now that the organisation is given a fresh start, i hope things would get better. it is true that they said the needy still need our help and our donations are still needed. but i hope the organisations could have asked for donations in a more rationale manner.

it was a good week. surprisingly, our dear sgt joseph has changed. on mon day, he gave us stand by bed. but he didn't check. called us to the lobby for a talk. sort of like a confrontation session. some of us guys spoke out. on the things tat he did that we did not like. he gave his own reasons. some i feel were indeed true. some i don't agree with. since then, he has changed. still strict, but not tat strict. had our RO at 7pm for the first time in the entire 3 week. and it was from him. i can feel that he somehow is surpressing his anger, cause we are still not very disciplined and there are points where he had to raise his voice. just hoping he will not unleash the fire, or it wld be hell for us.

finally after 3 weeks, i am getting very interested in the things tat i learn. i began more eager to learn abt more things. i want to know more. finally, we can implement many sceneiros into the PAM and tat had given me a much clearer view on what to do when encountering a certain incident. spinal management is the hardest of all. when suspected spinal injury, one has to do a lot of things and when turning the casualty to one side to place him on the spinal board, it really does require skills. the medic will have to keep his head and neck straight while the body is being turned to the side and that is one where i really need practice. somehow, when i turn, the head is still being moved. and being with uncooperative partners doesn't help at all. at one point, i was damm tu lan with my partners. one was complaining like shit and the other just thinks he knows everything. let see how he screw up his test.

then there was a 2nd IV session. as usual, cannot find the vein on my buddy, then change partner. sgt joseph got me a girl. wah lau. if on a girl, cannot anyhow topo topo, later she cry how. then poor miss tan became my casualty. can see the vein very clearly. after i put on my gloves and then clean tat area with the alcohol swab, somehow cannot see the vein liao. so feel for vein again, clean again, then poke the needle in. she didn't scream or what. lucky. then no backflow of blood. turn needle to the side a bit, finally found it. did the rest of the things as usual. then she told me not as pain as her first time. phew. then the next day she complain to me she got blueblack........ so IV is damm stressed leh!!!!!!!

another week

i'm back again. ok. this week isn't tat fucked up as last week, apart from the late night stand by bed. alright, i shoulnd't complaint, like what yz said. his life seemed more fucked up than mine. i no need to go chiong sua, got aircon room for lecture, a life so much better than him.

at least this week was interesting. learned much more stuff than last week. first was spinal injury. if a casualty kena spinal injury, damm leh ceh loh. have to do a lot of stuff before the casualty could be evacuated.

then there was also our first IV session. after viewing a demo, all of us were like damm nervous liao. we have to first learn how to prime our hartmann solution, which is the drip. must make sure there is no air bubble in it. so we were there tapping tapping the pack to make all the bubble go to the top. after doing it once, then i realise there is another bubble stuck at the bottom. damm! have to do it again. then come the injection part. first, it was chinni doing it on me. my arm is big size, so i scared he cannot find my vein. but after tying the tourniquet around my arm, my vein pop out and become damm obvious, so it was a one shot for him. then come disater for both of us. it was now my turn to set drip on him. but freaking hell his vein cannot be seen. his hands are fat and somemore he is black. (somehow reminded me of a joke. some guys were calling him dark chocolate and then someone mentioned he cannot be called calbury chocolate cause it is too high class). ok, back to the IV. so i only can feel for his vein. i seriously dunno where it is. even the sgt cannot feel the vein. so i poke in the needle, topo around, dig about, cannot find. reshot. on the other arm. still cannot find. even when the sgt was guiding my hand and searching around for the vein, still cannnot find. i was like WTF!!!!!! 3 tries alreadly still nothing. then change person. farhan came and i have to set on him. his vein was somehow obvious, and i hit the vein, but somehow the catheter won't go in, so have to take out the needle, and the catheter was bent. i must have pushed the needle down too hard. then another guy came, vein super bloody obvious, got it finally. and throughout the whole process, my hand was trembling, not doing the injection part but during the taping up and bandaging part. in the end, due to me kneeling down for damm bloody long (5 shots), end up i couldn't stand up properly. my legs just turned jelly. lucky didn't fall and spill the hartmann solution all over me. just when i tot all was over, i had to be the casualty for another guy shawn. lucky also one shot kena vein. i am so glad that i am blessed with a fat arm but a vein that is very obvious. i shld prepare myself mentally tat i am going to be kena shot at least 2 times for future IV sessions.

then on fri came our CPR lesson. finally i have learnt CPR properly and have the certification. what was interesting was the infant CPR, which is totally different from adult one and somehow it made me damm confused. i had a slight cock up during the test but luckily it was not a fatal mistake and i did managed to pass all 3 with one try. meanwhile my partner JC got lots of cock up and somehow made me a bit nervous also. during the 2 man CPR, i actually did something stupid by counting "1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 5 and switch and 6..." i just blurted out 6 unknowingly. then also got "1 and 2 n 3 n 4 n 5 n 1 n 2 n 3 n 4 n 5 n 1 n 2 n 3 n n 4 n 15". the correct one shld be tat the 2nd 5 is replaced by 10. some beat thing. like during 综艺大哥大 , when 玛格利特 said " 一到十要下, 十一到十五不要下". still remember tat episode, damm funny. but one whole day in the aircon room made me feel so damm freaking cold.

watched inital D also with yz. it was such a cool movie, all the drifting. made me want to own my own car so much. i gonna work towards my goal. i wanna get my license. i want to get my own car!! think jay had an easy time with his role. he was just being hmself in the movie, act cool, then smile smile a bit, got very few lines for him also. and the song 一路向北 is so damm nice!!