老鼠爱大米

我听见你的声音 有种特别的感觉
让我不断想不敢再忘记你
我记得有一个人 永远留在我心中
哪怕只能够这样的想你
如果真的有一天 爱情理想会实现
我会加倍努力好好对你永远不改变
不管路有多么远 一定会让它实现
我会亲亲在你耳边对你说(对你说)

我爱你爱着你 就像老鼠爱大米
不管有多少风雨我都会依然陪着你
我想你想着你 不管有多么的苦
只要能让你开心我什么都愿意这样爱你

at first when i saw the title, i thought i was rather corny. but looking at the lyrics 我爱你爱着你 就像老鼠爱大米, it somehow brought out the meaning of 我爱你.

range

finally came back from range. it was just so freaking tiring. had only abt 10 hrs of sleep in the 3 days. came home on fri nite and slept all the way till sat afternoon. and the crap food they give there gave me diarrhoea. how pathetic it can be. next week still have 12km route march followed by field camp!!

at the IMT, my results are not bad. when it comes to the actual range i am actually a bobo shooter. my day range is still ok, just that i cannot shoot well when it is prone unsupported. dunno why also. then when it comes to night range, it become worse. for the first day, during nite practice. i miss almost all my shots!!! then on the 2nd day test, i somehow managed to just pass the range. then the 3rd day day range test, results are also just ok. the good thing is that my rifle did not have much IA, only got once, where there is no feeding. suspect it is due to the faulty magazine. some ppl have IA almost every time. then it is super suay! talking abt suay, i also have my suay moment. got once i was sitting under a table, then i stood up and crashed my head onto the eduge of the table. now the bump is still on my head. the worse thing is that whenever i put on my helmet, it was press on tat area and it is fucking painful!! i am so glad that range is over and i need not go back to that pathetic place to sit down there and wait for my turn to shoot.

and now that the govt has decided to built the casino, not one but 2! i was wondering, can singapore support 2 casino?? and there seems to be too much restrictions regarding entrance to the casino. one of which is the $100 entrance fee. many people feel it is ridiculous. spend 100 just to get in?? if for me, i rather take the 100 bucks to go to genting and i can alreadly bet like siao! i am not a siao on gambler, so i think i just go for the jackpot machine. i admit i have no luck. i only won one lucky draw for some cd that i didn't even go collect. another lucky draw is during sec 2, where is 'won' the lot to go ATC in ubin. then when i went to korea, i went into the casino in the hotel, actually i am illegal to go in then, i lost like 10 sin dollar in jackpot machine. but that is spending money to entertain myself. never try jackpot before what, so go and try loh. whereas my father had luck. he still managed to win some money through jackpot. that why he is a gambler. the good thing is that he didn't gamble as much as he used to once i was born into the family. so is gambling addictive? i think yes. when one win some money, he wld think he wld win more, so he gamble more, with larger stakes. and another rule the govt imposed that i heard on tv is that one can ban his or her family member from entering the casino. seriously, when one wants to gamble, there are lots of other revenue to gamble. and sporeans are alreadly gambling through 4d, toto, soccer and all these shit, so with a casino, does it makes a great differece? with a $100 entrance fee, if one do not pay for it, he can always go to genting. the bus ticket alone won't cost even 100 bucks. now that the govt has decided, no point aruging over it. and i hope the integrated resort wld offer something good, not something that wld die and collapse within 10 yrs.

finally i am in the mood to make a decent entry. just had a very very nice sleep. i still love the bed at home. indeed, i miss home a lot after going to ns. now it has become like a hotel to me, where i just come home to sleep for one nite, and the next day, before i knew it, i have to go. i just watched a show on how ppl sent keiko, the whale in the movie Free Willy, back to his home, the seas off iceland. it made me feel so much abt home. i had always look forward to leading a life overseas all by myself, being independent and so on. but now i am thinking, am i gonna survive? physically yes. emotionally, perhaps a no.

i just looked at my expenses this month and holy shit, i spent quite a bomb on music cds. esp now with the china import cd that are much more cheaper than the local ones. in just a week, i had bought 3. u know, when things are cheaper, u tend to buy more and end up spending lots more money. but i won't feel good if i dun buy. haiz. just have to cut down on expenses elsewhere, esp now i wun have much chance to spend money except on weekends. the FIR cd is just simply great! i just love their genre of music. it is like a mix between rock and slow songs, and i wld say rather unique. just couldn't stop listening to them. and then there is ah sang, another cd i bought. her music is those slow and dreamy type. just perfect for listening when i am alone and sort of seeking some solace. and i was rather glad that she handled sarah mclachlan's angel well, though i feel like something is still not there. truly one strongly recommended album that is kind of underrated. much better than some songs like cyndi's honey that get more and more irritating the more i listen to it. haha. and now jolin just came out with a new song, ye man you xi. it is kind of like kan wo 72 bian, where she takes on a rather special type of music. but i find the song a bit of like acting cute or rather, i dunno how to describe it. dunno why, somehow i sort of enjoy it.

and i was was surfing around and chanced upon memoirs of a geisha movie. it shld be coming up in dec this yr. would be looking forward to it. i finished the book a few ago and i was like so mesmerised by the story. at first, i had thougt it was a true story, someone narrating the story, but after reading the acknowledgement, i author said the story of nitta sayuri is actually a fiction. i feel cheated, but the author is able to make the whole story look so real. it has made me look deeper into the life of a geisha. initially, i also had the perception that geisha are prostitutes, but after reading, i realise they are not. but i still wondered, how do they draw the line between a geisha and a prostitute. like in the book, geisha sell their virginity for money. i wonder if real geisha does that. the book mentions that they are kept women, where their expenses are being paid by their danna. at some point through the story, i wonder if geisha themselves are happy with the type of life they are leading. and the book had gave me an insight into japanese culture. most people are facinated with japan modern culture, their technology, their fashion, their music and of course their porn (ok, it sounds crude, but it is quite true), but not many wld look into their rich tradition. and the movie gonna star zhang ziyi, michelle yeoh and gong li. 3 beautiful chinese actress. definitely a must watch i suppose.

ok. enough crap. got to book in in a few hrs time. ultra sianz.

Have not blogged for the past 2 week. at least now life at bmtc is much more better. got more things to do and experience. things are no longer boring. i actually quite enjoy army life now. but it is very tiring. everynite, i wld just lie down on the bed and drift off to sleep in just a few minutes.

finally got a chance to go to the IMT aka tekong arcade. it really looks like an arcade. 10 screen in front of you. 10 rifle. at first my aiming was rather cocked up. i even once aimed without looking through the rear sight. but luckily it got better. then it comes to flash target. not much time to aim. just have to aim quickly and shoot. for tat one, my score is also not tat horrible. still can make it. at least it was fun. get to enjoy the aircon. can really sleep when in prone position.

then we have IFC lesson. finally learning how to fight like a army after being in the army for so freaking long. also, the lessons are much more interesting. but the camo cream really sucks. when it is on the face, when i sweat, all the camo goes into my eyes, the worse thing is tat i can't clean it cause there is also camo on my hand. the first time we camo on, some of my platoon mates really do damm funny. titan put on too much green camo and then he look like incredible hulk! then got once when lao da wipe is face, the black is mixed with green and his whole face look freaking funny. then the wash up part is hard too. those stain around the eyes are very hard to clean off. so we all look as if we have put on eyeshadow and mascara. some even went for lunch looking like tat yest. think i clean the area around my eyes like 4 to 5 times before everything comes off. and the worse thing is tat our csm says we have to camo on during every IFC lesson!!!!

i am too lazy to update anymore. weekends are just now spent catching up on my sleep. think when i pop, i can sleep for 24 hrs straight.

1199

i'm back again. kind of feel like a super long week in camp. haven had a short weekend for sometime. thinking that labour day holiday is still long away makes me sianz.

at least this weekend is kind of refreshing. had our basic close combat training (BCCT) lesson. heard from the others that the instructors are fucked up ones, but in our case, our instructor is not tat fucked. he always praise us and say we are performing well. dunno it is to encourage us or not. but still, it made the lesson enjoyable despite having to stand in the horse riding stance for a long time while doing punches. 3 BCCT lesson continuously this week. wah piang! the thigh muscles are hurting after all the stance. at least during the last lesson, we learn the jab and punch thing, it is more fun. think BCCT is more effective than running. my long 4 was socked from top to bottom and wah lau, even got sweat dripping from my shirt. can't imagine that i wore the same shirt for one whole week.

next was route march. had to do a 6km one. in long 4. walking is not tough, then feelpack doesn't feel tat heavy these days, but wearing long 4 is freaking hot! at least we walked a slightly different route from last time, so it was kind of enjoyable. walked over to sispec, finally saw how the place look like. saw them doing soc. siong sia... then the fun thing was jinbao was leading some hokkien cheer with lots of chee bai and whatever and some of us were still singing. but too bad got one bad too vulgar liao, then hew say stop singing.

this morn had our SOC lesson. before tat was the oc muster parade, which was utter crap. it was rather fucked up. not really us fucked up, but the sgts. then the national anthem also didn't play. at least it ended in a short while. went to SOC after tat. today is just introduction. at first they claim that those having BMI of 30 and below then can do SOC, but now they change it to 35. then in my section, only 3 ppl are going, including me. but i think all of us should have gone under 35. some then go and talk with sgt, saying they want to go soc, while some chao keng ppl just stay away, giving excuse like saying wah lau, leg pain ah, cannot jump ah, later leg break ah and so on.... ( yest nite he was complaining to me.... i was like duh...... just shut up...) anyway, soc looks rather fun, though when one do it, it wld be tough. today we just looked at the FS doing. wah lau, he clear every station at ease leh. think for me, the wall, the monkey bar and the rope is gone case one lah. the rest i shld be able to do lah. but with SBO and rifle, dunno how also lah. so shall wait until the next soc lesson.

going to meet my 2nd uncle on my mum side, who come from hong kong. in fact he alreadly came for quite a few day and he is going back tmr. i dun even know how he look like. my mum said he came when i was 3 yrs old, but back then still blur blur, everything also dunno. kind of strange, not even knowing how my own relative look like. and one of my cousin also coming. gonna be a crowd at my hse tmr. cannot sleep till 12 pm alreadly. maybe tat's a good thing also, cause when i go back to camp tmr, i can just lie down on bed and knock out, provided some bastards dun keep talking till the wee hours of the nite. it has been freaking irritating. ppl sleeping on both sides of me are talking talking talking even after lights out. normally, i wld be listening to the radio before i sleep or rather the main purpose of the radio is to cover up their talking. sometimes i wld slowly drift off to sleep or wld just lie down there and cursing them under my breadth. fucking hell!!!!!

and oh, i almost forgot to menion this. today while booking out, when boarding the ferry, the ferry rocked to one side and all the water that has collected on the roof over the door just poured over me!!!! i was like freaking drenched. showers of blessing huh. thinking of buying 4D today, but too long queue, so going to buy tmr. buying the registration number of the boat. 1199.