my comp screwed up again. it's the dunno how many times this yr that i went down. spend the whole afternoon fixing the bloody comp, reinstalling the programs. Think i gonna invest on a USB storage device. it's tiring to back up the files on CD. now also dunno why my internet has come to an all time slow. like 56 k connection like tat. sucks!

didn't study today. woke up early and was tidying my room while my frens are adding some chemicals into the test tube in the lab and panicking. hehe. the room is do damm dusty man. u shld see the amt of dust collected on the keyboard. plus those files which are placed on the table, waiting for me to feast on the notes inside. it's just dust dust everywhere. was packing the books n files and i found my YEP journal lying aside. went through the journal. It's almost one yr since i went for the trip and reading the entries really bring back lots of memories. oh how i miss tat place. the carefree life one has there.

gp is coming next week and i haven write any compo yet. always say i want to do it tmr, then it is tmr tmr tmr. just couldn't bring myself to write a full essay. i guess the only fun i have frm revision is doing stats qns. dunno why, i like stats damm lot. i think they are very interesting in fact. i can just sit down and do stats for hrs whereas for pure maths, i wld puke blood after 1 hr.

was watching the news today and i really pity the ppl of japan. typhoon plus earthquake and this earthquake is a major one. so many lives are lost. imagine ur hse collapsing. tat bad. hope there wld not anymore disaters hitting them. and the taiwan parliament. fancy throwing lunch boxes at each other. wat a scene. can remember last time they throw chair at each other. and waz up with the LP thing?

phy prac

yesterday physics prac went well. I guess i have gd luck. I did qn 1, the tougher qns first and though i cannot finish the whole thing in 1 hr, i am able to go back to the qn after i finished qn 2. anyway, qn 2 was so chicken feet. could do with my eyes close. qn 1 is the darned qn. have to oscillate a magnet with another magnet placed a varying distance from the suspended one such that the 2 magnet repel each other. First silly mistake: i didn't realise tat the magnet were supposed to repel at first, so whenever i oscillate the magnet, both magnet will attract each other. i was like 'oh shit shit shit' there. tried looking at others, nothing wrong with set up leh. later luckily realise tat the magnet were supposed to repel. 2nd silly mistake, i actually forgot the log one of the data. luckily i realise it in the nick of time. it was after i came out with the scale on the graph. as it was a negative scale, had to redraw the scale. The good thing is tat i managed to complete everything. phew!

the lock up in the gym was so sian as usual. realise that while we were walking to the gym from the labs, ppl from the 3rd shift could actually communicate with us at the linkway, at the canteen etc. didn't see anyone though. intend to do some work, but end up toking cock in the gym. some stupid jokes, then talking abt cca, some lewd jokes. in the end we were playing bingo bingo! i won the last game!

day before phy prac

It's gonna be the first paper tmr!! physics prac. Nothing much for me to study though. What sucks is tat we have to locked up until abt 1 after we finish off at 10. it sucks being in first shift. and somemore it is in the bloody gym. have to sit on the floor to mug. I have prepared liao. 2 full MD of songs plus econs tys plus magazine plus tmr newspaper to kill time. gonna go get a place where i can lean on. certainly not looking forward to tat.

haven blog for quite some time. been online, but just too sian to blog. think my mugging progress is too slow loh. still stuck on econs after 3 days. can't bring myself to move on. esp doing GP. haven even write an essay, which i said i wld do so last wk. well, shall see abt it.

and on to sgidol. WTF! maia is being kicked out! she's a consistent performer. i dun think she is boring. in fact i am quite surprised at her performance every week. and her performance are always so entertaining with dance moves. sad sad sad.... next wk is big band, think they gonna suck at it.

then the photos we took during grad day is up. it's here http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2841730093
first time taking so many wacky shot in one day.

gotta go off liao. All the best for tmr!

Chipanese

I am such a glutton. Went to the Chipanese buffet at Gapz with yz today. and the chipanese thing is total crap. chipanese = chinese + japanese. tot there wld be good dim sum n sushi, turn out both sucks. they got real creative sushi loh, like roast meat n charsiew on sushi?? WTF loh. then the dim sum also cannot make it loh. only like 5 varitey. and taste bad somemore. dun have my fav siew mai. will not ever go back again!

i realise i am mugging less and less. losing the momentum. finding it hard to get back somemore. exams are coming nearer and nearer. next week is phy prac liao. sian sian sian.

just now on sgidol, leandra sang dreaming of you by selena. it was my all time fav song. but somehow, she spoilt it. trying to act kiddo while singing the song, totally no class! and olinda wore a dress loH! WTF?? she looks femanine, but doesn't sound so. wonder wat she going to wear next week? minishirt with tubetop ah?

Dreaming Of You Selena

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I'd wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Cuz I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you even see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close
But so far, all I have are dreams of you
So, I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you(Yes, I do)

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me

Ahh...I can't stop dreaming of you
Ahhh...I can't stop dreamin

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that you came up to me
And said, "I love you; I love you too"

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow, and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming with you endlessly...

grad day

I just received my enlistment letter today. Going in on 8 dec. and prom is on the same day loh. sianz. paid the FULL sum alreadly. gonna sell my ticket or worse come to worse i just give it to someone loh. Seems like almost all of us have received the letter. as soon as i tore open the letter my mum handed to me, i then start to receive sms liao on their date of enlistment. ber going in same day as me. some a few days later, some in jan. ok i gonna start counting down to how many freedom days i gonna have. got to start some training also. if not go in will die.

yest was grad day. it was quite crap loh. sch started with assembly and we the YEP team got to go up to the atrium there to do a thank you bow. not all came. but at least it was a 'great way' to end the days at nj. then the so called 'grand ceremony' at the hall. was crap. had to sit on the floor somemore. listen to talk by cheng, result analysis, them trying to motivate us to work hard. the interesting thing was the slide show, where all the teachers dedicate message to their class. but it was too long and it soon got very draggy. after the whole thing, then we start to sing National Dream. michelle was singing on stage for dunno how many times loh. then ppl started throwing ppl into the sky. we did not throw yee. think he wld fly to the roof if we did tat. saw derek lee being thrown by s06. he almost flipped over. we then got our results slip ( which was one of the reason i came for the thing). shocking tat i got 81 percentile for econs. went to take photo after tat. first was outside the hall. peiling kena bullied by us. haha. first it was her face being covered, then her pony tail standing up. maybe i wld post the pic when peiling n xuan uploaded them. we then went back to class and took more pics. some wacky pics, and some formal one. think i took the most photo on this day.

went to watch white chicks with yz after the whole thing and it was freaking funny! both of us were laughing like mad ppl. some stupid quotes:
" I am having a B.F." "She's having a bitch fit"
"opps sorry, these are new" referring to her fake boobs.
"I am gonna write a letter!"
"This ain't a bag. It's prada!"
" we gonna so shoppinggggggg!"
The scene when they are shopping was really so funnY!!! when they are in the changing room. and the scene where the 2 real twins were stripped by the FBI agent. Haven't seen such a funny movie. the last one shld be austin powers goldmember.

and there is the bimbo song, " A Thousand Miles" the part where the black guy sang was just so .....

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead J
ust making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could Just see you
Tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

'Cause I need you
nd I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by '
Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

Leader of The Band

I was watching the rerun of sgidol today and i tot jerry actually sang quite well. It was due to him not having tat constipated voice. He was way better during the spectacular 1 show, way better than chrisypoo n i think bevely. Somehow i sense tat this song came out from his heart. It was a really nice song.

Leader Of The Band

An only child alone and wild
A cabinet maker’s son
His hands were meant for different work
And his heart was known to none
He left his home and went his lone
And solitary way
And he gave to me a gift I know
I never can repay

A quiet man of music
Denied a simpler fate
He tried to be a soldier once
But his music wouldn’t wait
He earned his love through discipline
A thundering, velvet hand
His gentle means of sculpting souls
Took me years to understand

The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through my instrument
And his song is in my soul
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
I’m just a living legacy
To the leader of the band

My brothers’ lives were different
For they heard another call
One went to Chicago
And the other to St Paul
And I’m in Colorado
When I’m not in some hotel
Living out this life I’ve chose
And come to know so well
I thank you for the music
And your stories of the road
I thank you for the freedom
When it came my time to go
I thank you for the kindness
And the times when you got tough
And, pap, I don’t think
I said, "I love you" near enough

The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through my instrument
And his song is in my soul
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
I’m just a living legacy
To the leader of the band
I am the living legacy
To the leader of the band.

oh man! oh dear! i am so sian diao now! tee decided not to go to hk, right at the very last last minute. we have alreadly made the reservation and then he called me at night to say he dun want to go liao. dun know the actual reason actually, he thinks 3 person going like very strange. i feel tat 3 shld be ok to travel. a small grp is better than a large grp. less fuss and trouble. easier to make decisions. ok. after all the fuss n huss and even going to extend our passport, the trip is cancelled. ok. i am in fact quite pissed. or maybe the more i think abt it, the more i am pissed. and this isn't the first time this week i am being sort of 'pang seh' by someone. why can't ppl make up their mind? all the time spent for nothing. i am not blaming anyone here. okok forget it. what's done cannot be undone.

finally i am down to mugging. yeah! managed to do some of tjc maths. indeed it is much easier than the freaking acjc one. i am thinking whether i shld go back to sch tmr. but not sure if i cld wake up. and next week gonna be the graduation. and my class is still so .... i dunno wat to say lah. when we asked who wanna go out next mon after the ceremony, everyone just said see first lah. only a few said yes. it gonna be one of the last few times the class can hang out together and yet none is keen? can expect next mon not many will go out. this is so sad man...

and talking abt mugging. yz is really turning into a mugger liao lah. he mugs day and night. i gonna do something abt it, if not i think my a'levels will suffer. right now i am having this mentality tat if i can do well enough to get into uni, then it's gd liao. i am in fact quite sick of studying. talking abt examination, i am actually amused tat a parent, in fact a few, wrote to the ST forum to complain tat the PSLE sci paper is damm hard. and there is this example. a rod made of metal and wood is suspended in the centre. the rod is heated and i ask what will happen to the rod. she states that her child only learns tat metal expands when heated n wood is an insulator of heat. and yet her child cannot answer the qns. came home crying somemore. The point is are s'poeans students expecting everything to come out of the textbook? i admit i expect things to come out of textbook too. it is really sad to see the education system going this way. and abt the education revamp, i also dunno what will happen. i also dun care cause it ain't gonna affect me anyway.

and oh jerry is finally out of sgidol! finally s'pore isn't tat tone deaf or shld i say a certain grp of ppl is not tat tone deaf. think the disco night sucks. it was a pain to hear them sing and i think olinda save the day. but the way she dress is so er xin loh. and maia dressing copy a-mei one.

got nothing else to day liao. nothing else to rant abt. tat's it.

4am

i am up at this unearthly hrs again. now it's getting worse. 4am. went to sleep at 9 plus and then miracly woke up at 2am then cannot sleep liao. then start to do my econs case study. much eashier than the previous 2. luckily lesson only start at 11.40 and i can jolly well sleep all the way until 10. shld i go tmr? only having 2 lessons. last day of official lessons. think i better go. last day sitting in my seat at the front of the class. i love tat position. the teacher seldom look at my direction and i can just day dream thru the whole lesson, look straight then i can see what's going on outside the class. got once saw a couple dunno doing what outside LT 5, then i saw sharon phua running in a funny way before, with her thick bush of hair bouncing up and down and of course lots of chiobu walking past the class. no wonder i haven been paying much attention in class. the outside class world is more fun.

i just checked the price of the hk trip, now tat tee can go. still dunno about ky. it became bloody ex loh and the cheapest i can find is $610, incld all taxes for a 5D4N trip. dunno whether it is considered ex, considering tat we just missed a promotion tat is $80 less. really hope tat we wld be able to go. considering all the expenditure, it cld possibly shoot up to $1000?? or maybe not tat much. cannot go eat at restaurant loh. must eat at those 'da pai dang' as shown in hk show, they just sit at the alley on stools. haha, think not tat poor yet. well, tmr see how lah..

really tempted to buy F.I.R original CD. cause the burn copy i have now i also quite cock liao. heard got some place sell original cd at a cheaper price. gotta go check it out if i have the time. still deciding shld i watch 2046? never watched a wang jia wei movie before. what made me want to watch this movie is the mystic and unknown behind this movie. the setting looks futuristic and gloomy. really interested to find out more.

think i go do my compre now. talking abt compre, we had our last unearthly gd double period (what rattna says) today. surprisingly majority of the class turned up. great. it was only until term 3 tat i started to appreciate gp lessons and now it has come to an end. i can say miss rattna is a gd teacher. she wld try to liven up the class when she sees we are all so sian and she never lose her temper. and her bickerings with alroy never fail to crack the class up. and i think this yr i talked more during gp, more cock in fact. last yr i was the only one frm s07, then wld always sit there and stone stone stone. miss chan ask me qns i also blur blur. this yr is so much more diff.

getting all nostaligic abt last day of sch. didn't i mention before tat i dun miss sch? well, perhaps i did miss sch. perhaps i will miss the class, miss the muggers, miss my frens....

It's 3.30 am now and i am still blogging? haha. not going to sch tmr. just finished my acjc maths paper and it was freaking difficult. great difference bwt it and the a level 2003. my econs drq is only done halfway thru. freaking 3 pages of words to read before doing the qns. dun even know wat the passage is taking abt. never finish up my work + me not sleeping at this hr means no sch for me. haha. last 3 days of sch and i not gonna 'treasure' it? hu cares abt sch. looking at yz blog just now and he mention of how he gonna miss his class or something like tat. as for s07, sure i am not gonna miss it. it is indeed sad tat the class is not bonded at all. but hu cares, ppl just come here to get their A and then leave this place. In fact the class and ppl i really missed wld be frm my pri sch. some of us still keep in contact. those were the days... chaorui suggest tat all of us meet up at the end of this yr, before some of us guys go into NS.

i am freaking bored now. can't sleep and dun feel like studying anymore. wat to do??

finally it is the restructured timetable. makes no diff frm a normal day. just tat we only had lessons for 3 days instead of 5. today was still until 5 and the last 2 period being GP. Was so bored during the gp lec that i was just dreaming and doodling on the table. until mrs marianne tan came and she was talking abt punishment and that was the only section i was listening. oh, i got 31 for my compo and i was both happy and shocked! the first time i ever went past a 30. overall was 54. have not seen a 5 digt for a long long time. missed out by a B grade by 1 mark. i wld have a b grade if i didn't tell rattna that my compre mark was added wrongly. but if i were to end up getting a B thru so called cheating, i wouldn't feel happy also.

have been doing maths, lots of maths during these 2 days. just too tired to do anything else other than completing work that need to be done. realise that last yr a level paper is actually rather easy and it will be damm hard to get an A for sure. I think i gonna have a major illness soon. have not been feeling well these few days and have been coughing non stop again. seems like no drugs can cure my coughing. then my back is also aching frequently. argh! it feels just so terrible.

i feel like i am having this 'bus curse' this week. well, having shit luck with bus. on mon, i missed a 67 as i was walking to the bustop frm nj. then i had to wait for almost half hr for the damm bus. the bus stop was then filled up with tchs and nygh ppl. even the bus was bloody packed. i did not take 67. i got so fed up waiting that i took 171 the moment it came. and did i mentioned there were practically no tibs buses during tat period. hopped onto the lrt and went home and at south view station, saw this person trying to exit from the wrong gantry. haha, is it his first time on a lrt, or mrt? then today, i missed 67 again, just like yesterday and again had to wait for like 20 min? and not to mention this morning. again i missed the bus at the interchange and had to wait for 15 min for the next one, and then i have to walk at top speed into sch frm the main gate. did not miss much of phy lec. actually i had the intention to pon, then i met vaish and she was going for lec, so i walked at top speed with her. i have not have rushed in. i tot the lec was rather crap and i wasn't listening much. ok. fuck the buses. i gonna have my own car next time!

miss champagne said this today which cracked me up and i tot it was rather true.
" In the past, if women did not want to be housewives, they would become either prostitutes or nuns"

也许明天 张惠妹
海一望无际 看不见终点在哪里 深邃又吸引 我的心
我脚在浪里 飘飘荡荡爱有时忽高有时低
推着我向前 每一天

* 曾经我放纵享受 到最后无处解脱
越心痛就越快乐 越想快乐越寂寞 Oh Yeah

也许明天 没有谁 陪我走过 潮起潮落
也许明天 还有你 陪我开始 直到最后
海一望无际 我在浪里 *

海一望无际 看不见终点在哪里 深邃又吸引 我的心
我脚在浪里 飘飘荡荡爱有时忽高有时低
推着我向前 每一天