end of 2004

2004 is gonna end in a few mintues. looking back at this yr. hey, i realise it was just any normal yr for me.

starting off the yr as a JC 2 student. hoping to study hard, with much hopes on myself, but ended up with much disappointment. always tot i cld do well in studies, but in fact not. have i really tried hard enough? Have i worked hard? and also, it is the first time i gave up. dropped chem in may. i had thought over this over and over again, but i told myself i didn't want to add to my misery, so in the end i made the decision. and another memorable event wld be project triple S. before i went into this project, i told myself i wld commit myself totally into this project. looking back, i dun think i did. but i am glad i did my part and the whole thing went out in success. though i cld not be around during the second day of camp, but looking at the participants, i was really happy. as for my personal life, erm.. sad to say lah, have put on weight despite effort to lose weight. through this yr, i have also realise tat my family is of utmost importance to me. i never miss them tat much until i went into NS. then come national service. enlistend on 08 dec. was rather depressed when i first went in, but after spending a few weeks there, i realise it isn't tat bad. dunno why, i start to miss my days in NP only in NS. miss some ppl whom have been together for 4 yrs. memorable events? got to be the blackouts. the first time i am experiencing life totally without electricity. where everywhere is dark dark dark.

moving on to 2005. resolutions?? nah. dun think i wld keep to them once i made them. but one thing for sure. losing weight. with the help of NS, i am sure i can do it! i would not give up easily this time! frankly, i am really not in the mood to welcome the new yr. so what if it is 2005? it wld just be another day. plus so many unfortunate things have happpened just as the yr is coming to an end. while we are here counting down, there are so many ppl around us, so near to us that are suffering. i say a prayer for those who have perished.

another sad event of the yr wld be the closing down of channel U. i was watching the recap episode thing just now. i realise TV wld never be the same. i realise i really liked the programs produced by channel u. esp the variety show produced in the early days of U. it is really such a pity. the new channel U will never be the same.

Awaiting the arrival of 2005. I hope it wld be a good yr for us, where everything wld be successful. the world wld become a better place to be.

Goodbye 2004, Welcome 2005.

depressing

came back this morning, or rather yest (wed) morning. it gonna be the only (most probably) long weekend we gonna have. praying that CNY holiday wld be this long also. it has been raining the whole of tue and it was freaking cold in tekong. could shiver in the afternoon. as result of rain, we did not do much on tat day. just stay in bunk. some were sleeping. then we were all reading FHM. it is just a boring week in camp.

the tsunami caused by the earthquake has indeed cause a very very huge damage. i watched the news on sun before booking in and i knew tat waves had hit areas like phuket, sri lanka. till i read the papers in camp, then i realise the damage is actually tat great. so many people had died. i was feeling so fortunate that i am living here in singapore, where we were being surrounded and 'protected' from the elements by indonesia. i can't imagine my hse being destroyed. seeing people being washed away by waves. i had this horrible dream once that i was swimming in the sea, then suddenly the waves came and swept me away and i was choking to death. i woke up in sweat. it is really horrible. and now to think so many ppl died this way. i wish i cld help, but what i can do only is maybe to donate some stuff or some money. this is really depressing... i am feeling damm lousy the whole day.

kung fu!!

back frm tekong after a short 3 day stay. dunno why we can book out so early also. booked out on thu nite and only need to go back on sun. 3 whole days at home. heard next week can book out on wed nite. it better be so. so these few days were spent catching up on the sleep. and somemore i am taking medicine, tat made me more drowsy. been coughing like hell there. initially it was a sore throat, then went to the Medical centre and the doc gave me some crap medicine tat didn't help at all. in fact it made my coughing worse. the worse thing is tat i cannot laugh, once i laugh, either got no sound come out or i start coughing. luckily now it is much better.

actually this week is rather crap week. all the 'people on top' are not in camp, clearing leave i presume, then it is like damm slack loh. on the day we book out, we did nothing at all. just stay in bunk and sleep the whole day. i didn't sleep lah. got hooked on The Bourne Supremacy. just so bored in there. think next week will also be the same.

yest went to watch kung fu with mum and dad. realise tat i haven been spending much time with them. before enlistment, i was like often outside. then when i book out, i went out also. so this week is a good time to make up for tat. the cinema was packed to the brim lah. at lot 1 11.30 pm show. went to buy ticket at 8 plus and we could only manage seats at the 6th row. but at least the view is still ok. i think lot 1 seat are the best seats. it is not to cramped, esp for someone big size like me, got lots of leg space and can rock. the show is crap, but real funny. esp tat guy who always expose his butt. wah piang eh!

i am so glad tat i am able to control myself. haven touch any soft drink since enlistment. hope i can keep it tat way until CNY, then maybe i can drink some to reward myself. weight loss is very slow, but i gonna make sure i lose at least 20kg!!! dieting is hard!!! gonna exercise more self control!!!! gonna go back tmr. beginning to feel sian liao...

first book out!

Finally, my long awaited first book out is here! and it is shiok lah. can wait until mon noon then book in, going to have a full day to myself tmr. at first we were initally sian diao when we heard our book out time is 1800 hrs. we saw delta company booking out at 11. then we realise that they got to be back by tmr night, then we are all laughing.

I was posted to ECHO company. all the morbidly obease go there lah. we were joking tat the building echo is occupying is specially built with reinforcement. too heavy liao. even in the LT, the chairs were all slanting downwards. a result of all the previous batch of echo recruits. i was in platoon 3, and we stayed at the 4th level. so 4 bloody flights of stairs to climb up and down everyday. damm gd exercise. luckily we were not in the top level. life there is not as bad as i think lah. bed so comfortable. food is so damm good. think it won't help in the weight losing looking at the type of food they give. still remember got 3 meals continuous that were western style. and they give rice, potato, bread and french fries!!!! lose weight or gain weight?? i didn't dare to eat much. after one week, i still weigh the same as when i book in. dunno if it is the weighing scale problem. and we got to lose 1 kg everyweek. so cannot anyhow binge during weekend.

the training was still in the so called physical training phase. the 'losing weight' phase. the entire course is gonna be 26 wks long lah. so damm bloody long. even the sgt agree tat it is bloody long. every morning wake up do 5BX, then go for breakfast. after tat go for brisk walk. just walking round the track. like strolling in the park like tat. at least morale was high with all the songs and cheers. my platoon got a lot of 'siao on' ppl lah. so can sing sing sing. somemore the sgt teach us some twisted version of the songs. then after tat it is some lecture. can't seem to stay awake in the lecture hall. then after lunch, lecture again, before evening exercise, then dinner. after dinner sometime got some stuff to do, sometime just free time. seems like damm gd life huh. really, life isn't tat bad here. or maybe i haven come to the bad part yet.

the sucky part is got to be stand by area, or worse still stand by bed. have to clean up all the area. same thing lah, no matter how clean the area is, the sgt still gonna find some place that got dust. stand by bed worse. the arrangement in the cupboard have to follow a certain order. SAF give u a bloody big cupboard to put just a few things on display. so stupid!

at least my section got interesting ppl. they are really damm fun ppl. everyday can laugh until peng! tat help time to past a lot quickly. but one thing is tat a lot of them are deep sleeper lah. i am always the first one to wake up when some guy alarm clock rang, then i have to wake up to turn it off and wake tat person up. think my section is also the fastest grp lah. everytime got to fall in, we wld be the first few to get there. then my section got one recourse guy. we call him 'lao jiao'. he shared with us a lot of experience. some not so gd lah.

10 days seems to have passed by quickly. next wk onwards, then will not have such a long confinment. every week can come back to civilisation. hopefully the next 25 weeks will pass by quickly.

last entry before enlistment

yoz. here i am with my last entry before enlistment. in less than 12 hrs i wld have to be in tekong. dunno how to describe my feeling right now. feeling a bit of excitement, but also some fears at the same time. heard a lot of stories abt there, but dunno whether those are true or not. guess i have to experience it myself.

gonna be stuck there till xmas. 3 wks in camp. gonna miss my comp. miss everything at home. but think my mum is gonna miss me more. she alreadly have been crying for days. it is as if i am going to die like tat. bet she gonna cry there also. dun make a scene can liao. hehe. i had told her not to worry. i wld be fine. i know how to take care of myself. haizzz.. and tmr my grandma also wants to come. wow! 3 ppl sending off 1 person. the lesser the better i prefer. if not i cld turn emotional tmr...

nothing much to say. hope everything turns out well...

6A gathering

today i met up with some of my pri sch friends at mrs loo place. let me see hu turned up. got chaorui, kunying, kelvin, wei liang (he changed so much that i cld not recognise him initially), wei jian, ser hwee, ting liang, yi wang, tze chuan, doreen, hui yian, jasmine, weidi. hope i didn't miss anyone out. we sat there and ate and talk a lot about the past. realise how fun those days were. all the stupid things we did and all the stupid punishment we received. and we talked abt some ppl who used to be in our class and i forgot most of them liao. not those in 6A lah, but those in pri 3,4,5. haha, i think the attendance is kind of expected lah. still the typical few. drink quite a bit today. a little bit of diff type of alcohol. got a bit of redwine, then some beer, and another one gin tonic mixed with coke. first time tasting tat, taste like medicine. mrs loo said mr loo added a lot of coke liao. dunno how it wld taste if more gin tonic is being added. we were joking he is the bartender. and yes, there are quite a lot alcohol at her place. kunying face turned the reddest. mine also turned, but after a while not tat jia lat liao. we sat around and left around 10 plus. proceed to k pool at lot 1 to play pool. we got 6 ppl to my table. today i am damm suay loh, always kena the white ball into the hole, or the white ball land in some place that is so damm easy for the other team to shoot. we then sort of walked home together. it was really fun that we cld still meet after after 6 yrs. hope we cld still come out in future.

2 more days to the army. feel damm sad liao. going to leave my comfy home for tekong. my mum is more sad than me i guess. she will definitely cry when she leave tekong on my enlistment day. aiya, just gonna enjoy these 2 days. gonna pig out like i never before, cause there wldn't be much chance to do so in the next 2 yrs..

alexandra sux!

can't believe it. time passes so fast. in 3 days time i shall be in tekong alreadly. definitely not looking forwardto it. imagine having to wake up early and sleep early almost everyday, leading a routine life with ppl controlling ur every moves. ok, not tat horrible i guess. i shall be albe to survive thru this. 2 yrs will pass by quickly.

last fri was PA farewell. it was just bad. not what we expected. last yr we spent so much effort in the farewell and i cld say we are very proud of that. but this yr, the farewell is just plain boring. it is just like a get together in sch. like what ber said '"mai hiam jiu eh sai, ai hiam jiu ke na sai"a few of us then hang out at marina and i supposed i had said something that i shld have just kept quiet abt. but nvm lah. it's all in the past liao. i ain't gonna see her tat much anyway.

went out with yz today. think this wld be last time we wld get together. wld be difficult during NS. went for sushi as usual. these few days my stomach shrunk i think. i only ate very few, compared to the past. and i survided for the whole day on just tat meal. went on to watch alexandra after tat. it was such a bore! what 'better than troy' comment. what crap! i feel asleep during the last part of the movie. was too tired. and then i got totally lost after tat. the movie seem to protray alexandra in a bad way. he is supposed to be a hero ain't it? what a waste of money.

Taufik woN!

Taufik won! at least s'pore made the right choice. sly is good, but singing wise he is not tat zai. his pronounciation is bad also loh. esp in his It's My Life. 'Life' become 'live'. 'Forever' become 'for-leh-ver'. haha. back to idol, i think the song I Dream is so damm nice! inspiring song. Like Fantasia's I Believe.

I decided to give a miss to chalet. Have not been feeling well these days. Think if i go, i wld turn out very sick before my enlistment. partly also i dun feel like going. i kind of resent huge company nowadays. dunno why. wld prefer to go out with a few frens or chill out at home. Just finished watching chong shang yun xiao vcd. i am gonna miss my civilian carefree life. doing what i want anytime i want. not like in the army, have to follow this follow tat. not the type of life i want.

and my room is infested with pests. there is this stupid mosquito tat keep flying round the room. try to hit it, then dunno where it goes. and then there is this spider tat is as huge as a 10 cent coin. haven seen such a big spider, and somemore in my room!! I saw it near my bed yesterday and i didn't have a good night sleep yest. afraid tat spidey will crawl onto my bed. gonna take out my bygon and spray all over someday, when i am not at home, cause tat bloody smell takes hours to disappear. now got bites all over me. dun kena dengue fever can liao.

and dunno which guy, have been using my name to post stupid things. what childish behaviour tat is. I tot this was some childish behaviour back in lower sec, and now i see it again. What crap!