another week.

another week have passed in camp. 7 weeks into army life. 19 weeks more to POP. still a long long way to go. shouldn't think too much about tat. looking on the good side. i lost 10 kg alreadly! going to go below the 100 mark. Hope i can achieve tat before CNY, but will surely put back after CNY. just went new yr shopping with mum today. this yr only buy a bit of stuff. cannot whack too much during CNY. I realise having to control what you eat everyday is a torture. this one cannot eat, tat one cannot eat. what's the point of living?? 'neng chi shi fu'

this week si bei sian. kena guard duty. for regimentation one. not kena punishment one. hope no more guard duty for me( dun do anything stupid). guard duty is not totally not fun! firstly, i was doing sentry, which means holding the stupid shield and baton, then standing at the ferry terminal. the 8-10 shift was still ok, got ppl walking, then got officers to greet. not tat sian. the 2-4 am shift sucks! totally nothing to do. just leaning against the wall or walking up and down the terminal, looking at fish jumping abt in water, looking at planes taking off frm changi. totally sian! next is the guard room. Looks like shit! the bed are all so old that they creak when u lie on it. then 2 out of 5 fan is spoilt. makes the room hot and stuffy! the pillow is also in a super bad condition. and sleeping in boots is super uncomfortable! didn't sleep much the whole nite, and still had activity the next day. it's a miracle i still survived the day feeling rather fresh throughout!

my cough came back again. been coughing like hell. dunno if it is the so called tekong cough, or if it is caused by my sinusitis problem. couldn't sleep well the whole nite. woke up in the middle of nite, then cough cough cough for quite some time before going back to sleep. then during PT, coughing makes me feel worse also. dun wanna go report sick liao. getting the att b status is super sian. either sit down at training shed doing nothing or do 'sai gang' (shit work). if report sick, might as well get att c!

and damm it! bought another CD again. now got own pay liao. got tat 'i'm richer' thought. couldn't control myself and went to bought jay chou live CD. could say i bought the CD mainly cause the disc contains most of his hits song. and another reason is tat he sang 'dao dai', which was originally sung by jolin. but i think his version is dammm good! he shld have kept tat song for his own! couldn't find david tao new album at imm, so didn't buy tat. or shld i make a trip to chinatown again? and now i realise that the china import CD are flooding neighbourhood. saw them selling at Bukit batok, then also at IMM. but it is priced at $9.90, a little more ex than the usual $7 at chinatown. dunno if daivd tao one is alreadly released in china and imported into sg. argh!!!! if this goes on, my pay gonna be gone in no time!

sucks!

I have been too lazy to update. It has been damm tiring, although my training have not gone into the 'xiong' phase. The short weekend home is indeed sucky. book out on sat, book in on sun. haven warm the sofa at home then have to go back camp liao.

some updates on camp life. last week. wah piang! super happening in my company. apparently, some kuku went to complaint that ppl were smoking in the toilet. then platoon 2 ppl own up. kena fucked upside down by OC and CSM. then dunno how also, platoon 3 ppl (my platoon) also admitted to smoking in toilet. then they all kena fucked again. first time hear OC scream so loud. then in the end the whole company kena fucked. all kena spot check. the sgts came to check our cupboard individually. then they also check handphone. wah lan eh. they check the call record to see if u got use phone during office hrs and after lights out. lots of ppl kena for tat sia! luckily i neve kena. but i have nothing to be afraid of also. i abide by the rules. i am a guai soldier. haha!

then this week is super suay. sick the whole week sia! monday morning wake up keep running to the toilet. went to see MO. diarrhoea. take medicine, felt much better. then on att B. sit down there doing nothing. tue also att B. so didn't take part in exercise. only got take part in the rifle cleaning lesson. no matter how u clean the rifle still dirty one. then at night, sibei suay! kena fever again! went up to 38.5. went to see MO immediately. I was hoping to get att c also, so tat i can rest properly at home. indeed, got att c and took the 10pm fastcraft back. but have to go back to camp on wed nite, then book out on thu morn. i was like WTF! so i just went to see outside doctor to get another day MC. so i am getting a ultra long weekend. but most of the time was spent in bed anyway. feeling 'gong gong' most of the time. plus my throat is inflammed, can't even eat properly. It was simply torture sia! Luckily by yest afternoon, i got much better.

went to chinatown with my parents yest nite. dunno why, this yr like no mood for new yr. got to do with army i guess. just walk around there, buying some new yr stuff and clothes. and damm, despite losing some weight, my body size seems to still remain the same leh. sianz. still hard to buy clothes. found a shirt tat is nice n cheap, but i need to lose abt 2 inches off my tummy before it cld fit nicely. nvm! i will work hard. the only 'gain' yest nite was the china imported cd i bought. as usual, every trip down there will confirm buy some CD. bought jacky live performance CD. it was gd!!!! strongly recommended. lee hom new album just sucked!

Sianz. the short break is going to come to an end. 2 full week before CNY. think will also go camp and 'zoh boh' one loh. army life sucks ! hope i cld get a posting where i can stay out. at least a few hrs at home of gd quality rest will keep me sane for 2 yrs!

sick

i am back at this odd hour when i shld be in camp. Not on AWOL. just that i am down with fever for the past few days. on wed morning, i was freezing in bed and then went to report sick. saw the MO, which was a better MO this time roundm, who took time to examine me and tell me about the medicine as i was allegic to paracetamol, which is the common medicine for fever. got 2 days att c. so get to go home. took the 12 o'clock fastcraft back. all the while, i was so blur. partly because i was a bit 'gong' frm the fever, and also i dunno wat to do. got another guy att c also, so i sort of followed him lah. he show the RP the status slip, then i did so also. while waiting for the ferry, i met moses, also on att c. then we reached SFT, all blur. can we just walk out? then we just walk out and catch a bus to pasir ris. then fever did not subside, went to see doctor again. temp went up to 38. got another 2 day MC. which means i only need to book in on sun. a much needed rest. getting a good sleep.

talking abt a gd nite sleep, in camp, haven been able to get a good sleep. lights out at 2230, but some idiot in the bunk decide to talk at the top of their voice till dunno wat time. being a light sleeper, of course i cannot sleep until they sleep loh. that's not all. in the morning, before 5 o clock. some kuku alarm clock began to ring. then at the first ring i wake up liao. for some, they turn off their alarm clock almost immediately and then went back to sleep again. i of course just shut my eyes for a while or stare at the celling until it is time for me to wake up. then there will be this super irritating alarm clock. the beeping is super irritating and yet the owner can sleep like a pig and dun bother about it. and i am always the one to go turn it off. super irritating!! i mean what's the point of setting the alarm clock so fucking early when u dun even wake up?? i cld have gotten a few more minutes of precious sleep. so in camp, i was looking like a zombie most of the time. so weekend are spent catching up on sleep, but somehow that seems like a waste of my precious weekend. so many things i want to do. catch up on all the news and things i missed during the week. army life really sucks! can't wait for the 2 yrs to pass quickly, or at least until june, then i can F off frm the island.

my mum told me i have turned more vulgar nowadays. thinking abt it, it is quite true. i realise i have been using more of 'zee bai' these days. no surprise of course. being exposed to vulgarities inside camp. speaking to other ppl in such tone. i better start controlling myself. it ain't nice to use such words, esp in front of girls.

tmr no one to go out with me. most of my frens are going in these few days and thus got confinment. yz going in tmr. and today dunno what happen to him also lah. msg him never reply. pre enlistment depression?? think everyone will suffer frm that. still considering whether to go for the NTU talk. been interested to take a look at the aerospace engineering course. tmr then decide lah.

a new year.

the first day of a new year. It was freezing cold the whole day. Have been raining almost non stop since last night. was shivering the whole day. lazed around in the warmth of my bed until almost noon. had to don a jacket the whole day. just cold cold cold.

I welcomed the new yr with my pri sch mates. online of course. no one wld believe it loh. we are still so close 6 yrs after our graduation. oh man, i miss them so much. i miss the carefree days in pri sch. now, stuck in army for 2 yrs. now only about one month has passed. still got a long long way to go. hope i ain't gonna get some shitty vocation after BMT. preferely posted to a camp near hse (not tekong), then can book out everyday. just like going to sch like tat. i want my life after work.

I am still trying to curb my CD buying spree. esp now cannot download songs liao. keep telling myself. cannot buy. cannot buy. think next week going down to chinatown again to check whether new stock have arrived. thinking of getting Celest Chong new album. now SHE 'wo ai ni' is on repeat mode on my player. Love this song so so so much. saw the MTV just now on tv. it is so sad. the power of love. how nice wld it be to fall in love. Oh man, i wanna fall in love! ok. enough crap. stop dreaming.

Have to go back camp tmr. Next week new recruits coming in liao. hopefully cookhse food wld become much better. and it better not be this cold there. dun rain rain rain everyday. rain a bit can lah, but not the whole day. if not wld be freezing down there.


Training to be soliders, to fight for our land
once in our life, two years of our time
Have you ever wondered, Why must we serve?
Because we love our land and we want it to be free to be free

end of 2004

2004 is gonna end in a few mintues. looking back at this yr. hey, i realise it was just any normal yr for me.

starting off the yr as a JC 2 student. hoping to study hard, with much hopes on myself, but ended up with much disappointment. always tot i cld do well in studies, but in fact not. have i really tried hard enough? Have i worked hard? and also, it is the first time i gave up. dropped chem in may. i had thought over this over and over again, but i told myself i didn't want to add to my misery, so in the end i made the decision. and another memorable event wld be project triple S. before i went into this project, i told myself i wld commit myself totally into this project. looking back, i dun think i did. but i am glad i did my part and the whole thing went out in success. though i cld not be around during the second day of camp, but looking at the participants, i was really happy. as for my personal life, erm.. sad to say lah, have put on weight despite effort to lose weight. through this yr, i have also realise tat my family is of utmost importance to me. i never miss them tat much until i went into NS. then come national service. enlistend on 08 dec. was rather depressed when i first went in, but after spending a few weeks there, i realise it isn't tat bad. dunno why, i start to miss my days in NP only in NS. miss some ppl whom have been together for 4 yrs. memorable events? got to be the blackouts. the first time i am experiencing life totally without electricity. where everywhere is dark dark dark.

moving on to 2005. resolutions?? nah. dun think i wld keep to them once i made them. but one thing for sure. losing weight. with the help of NS, i am sure i can do it! i would not give up easily this time! frankly, i am really not in the mood to welcome the new yr. so what if it is 2005? it wld just be another day. plus so many unfortunate things have happpened just as the yr is coming to an end. while we are here counting down, there are so many ppl around us, so near to us that are suffering. i say a prayer for those who have perished.

another sad event of the yr wld be the closing down of channel U. i was watching the recap episode thing just now. i realise TV wld never be the same. i realise i really liked the programs produced by channel u. esp the variety show produced in the early days of U. it is really such a pity. the new channel U will never be the same.

Awaiting the arrival of 2005. I hope it wld be a good yr for us, where everything wld be successful. the world wld become a better place to be.

Goodbye 2004, Welcome 2005.

depressing

came back this morning, or rather yest (wed) morning. it gonna be the only (most probably) long weekend we gonna have. praying that CNY holiday wld be this long also. it has been raining the whole of tue and it was freaking cold in tekong. could shiver in the afternoon. as result of rain, we did not do much on tat day. just stay in bunk. some were sleeping. then we were all reading FHM. it is just a boring week in camp.

the tsunami caused by the earthquake has indeed cause a very very huge damage. i watched the news on sun before booking in and i knew tat waves had hit areas like phuket, sri lanka. till i read the papers in camp, then i realise the damage is actually tat great. so many people had died. i was feeling so fortunate that i am living here in singapore, where we were being surrounded and 'protected' from the elements by indonesia. i can't imagine my hse being destroyed. seeing people being washed away by waves. i had this horrible dream once that i was swimming in the sea, then suddenly the waves came and swept me away and i was choking to death. i woke up in sweat. it is really horrible. and now to think so many ppl died this way. i wish i cld help, but what i can do only is maybe to donate some stuff or some money. this is really depressing... i am feeling damm lousy the whole day.

kung fu!!

back frm tekong after a short 3 day stay. dunno why we can book out so early also. booked out on thu nite and only need to go back on sun. 3 whole days at home. heard next week can book out on wed nite. it better be so. so these few days were spent catching up on the sleep. and somemore i am taking medicine, tat made me more drowsy. been coughing like hell there. initially it was a sore throat, then went to the Medical centre and the doc gave me some crap medicine tat didn't help at all. in fact it made my coughing worse. the worse thing is tat i cannot laugh, once i laugh, either got no sound come out or i start coughing. luckily now it is much better.

actually this week is rather crap week. all the 'people on top' are not in camp, clearing leave i presume, then it is like damm slack loh. on the day we book out, we did nothing at all. just stay in bunk and sleep the whole day. i didn't sleep lah. got hooked on The Bourne Supremacy. just so bored in there. think next week will also be the same.

yest went to watch kung fu with mum and dad. realise tat i haven been spending much time with them. before enlistment, i was like often outside. then when i book out, i went out also. so this week is a good time to make up for tat. the cinema was packed to the brim lah. at lot 1 11.30 pm show. went to buy ticket at 8 plus and we could only manage seats at the 6th row. but at least the view is still ok. i think lot 1 seat are the best seats. it is not to cramped, esp for someone big size like me, got lots of leg space and can rock. the show is crap, but real funny. esp tat guy who always expose his butt. wah piang eh!

i am so glad tat i am able to control myself. haven touch any soft drink since enlistment. hope i can keep it tat way until CNY, then maybe i can drink some to reward myself. weight loss is very slow, but i gonna make sure i lose at least 20kg!!! dieting is hard!!! gonna exercise more self control!!!! gonna go back tmr. beginning to feel sian liao...

first book out!

Finally, my long awaited first book out is here! and it is shiok lah. can wait until mon noon then book in, going to have a full day to myself tmr. at first we were initally sian diao when we heard our book out time is 1800 hrs. we saw delta company booking out at 11. then we realise that they got to be back by tmr night, then we are all laughing.

I was posted to ECHO company. all the morbidly obease go there lah. we were joking tat the building echo is occupying is specially built with reinforcement. too heavy liao. even in the LT, the chairs were all slanting downwards. a result of all the previous batch of echo recruits. i was in platoon 3, and we stayed at the 4th level. so 4 bloody flights of stairs to climb up and down everyday. damm gd exercise. luckily we were not in the top level. life there is not as bad as i think lah. bed so comfortable. food is so damm good. think it won't help in the weight losing looking at the type of food they give. still remember got 3 meals continuous that were western style. and they give rice, potato, bread and french fries!!!! lose weight or gain weight?? i didn't dare to eat much. after one week, i still weigh the same as when i book in. dunno if it is the weighing scale problem. and we got to lose 1 kg everyweek. so cannot anyhow binge during weekend.

the training was still in the so called physical training phase. the 'losing weight' phase. the entire course is gonna be 26 wks long lah. so damm bloody long. even the sgt agree tat it is bloody long. every morning wake up do 5BX, then go for breakfast. after tat go for brisk walk. just walking round the track. like strolling in the park like tat. at least morale was high with all the songs and cheers. my platoon got a lot of 'siao on' ppl lah. so can sing sing sing. somemore the sgt teach us some twisted version of the songs. then after tat it is some lecture. can't seem to stay awake in the lecture hall. then after lunch, lecture again, before evening exercise, then dinner. after dinner sometime got some stuff to do, sometime just free time. seems like damm gd life huh. really, life isn't tat bad here. or maybe i haven come to the bad part yet.

the sucky part is got to be stand by area, or worse still stand by bed. have to clean up all the area. same thing lah, no matter how clean the area is, the sgt still gonna find some place that got dust. stand by bed worse. the arrangement in the cupboard have to follow a certain order. SAF give u a bloody big cupboard to put just a few things on display. so stupid!

at least my section got interesting ppl. they are really damm fun ppl. everyday can laugh until peng! tat help time to past a lot quickly. but one thing is tat a lot of them are deep sleeper lah. i am always the first one to wake up when some guy alarm clock rang, then i have to wake up to turn it off and wake tat person up. think my section is also the fastest grp lah. everytime got to fall in, we wld be the first few to get there. then my section got one recourse guy. we call him 'lao jiao'. he shared with us a lot of experience. some not so gd lah.

10 days seems to have passed by quickly. next wk onwards, then will not have such a long confinment. every week can come back to civilisation. hopefully the next 25 weeks will pass by quickly.

last entry before enlistment

yoz. here i am with my last entry before enlistment. in less than 12 hrs i wld have to be in tekong. dunno how to describe my feeling right now. feeling a bit of excitement, but also some fears at the same time. heard a lot of stories abt there, but dunno whether those are true or not. guess i have to experience it myself.

gonna be stuck there till xmas. 3 wks in camp. gonna miss my comp. miss everything at home. but think my mum is gonna miss me more. she alreadly have been crying for days. it is as if i am going to die like tat. bet she gonna cry there also. dun make a scene can liao. hehe. i had told her not to worry. i wld be fine. i know how to take care of myself. haizzz.. and tmr my grandma also wants to come. wow! 3 ppl sending off 1 person. the lesser the better i prefer. if not i cld turn emotional tmr...

nothing much to say. hope everything turns out well...

6A gathering

today i met up with some of my pri sch friends at mrs loo place. let me see hu turned up. got chaorui, kunying, kelvin, wei liang (he changed so much that i cld not recognise him initially), wei jian, ser hwee, ting liang, yi wang, tze chuan, doreen, hui yian, jasmine, weidi. hope i didn't miss anyone out. we sat there and ate and talk a lot about the past. realise how fun those days were. all the stupid things we did and all the stupid punishment we received. and we talked abt some ppl who used to be in our class and i forgot most of them liao. not those in 6A lah, but those in pri 3,4,5. haha, i think the attendance is kind of expected lah. still the typical few. drink quite a bit today. a little bit of diff type of alcohol. got a bit of redwine, then some beer, and another one gin tonic mixed with coke. first time tasting tat, taste like medicine. mrs loo said mr loo added a lot of coke liao. dunno how it wld taste if more gin tonic is being added. we were joking he is the bartender. and yes, there are quite a lot alcohol at her place. kunying face turned the reddest. mine also turned, but after a while not tat jia lat liao. we sat around and left around 10 plus. proceed to k pool at lot 1 to play pool. we got 6 ppl to my table. today i am damm suay loh, always kena the white ball into the hole, or the white ball land in some place that is so damm easy for the other team to shoot. we then sort of walked home together. it was really fun that we cld still meet after after 6 yrs. hope we cld still come out in future.

2 more days to the army. feel damm sad liao. going to leave my comfy home for tekong. my mum is more sad than me i guess. she will definitely cry when she leave tekong on my enlistment day. aiya, just gonna enjoy these 2 days. gonna pig out like i never before, cause there wldn't be much chance to do so in the next 2 yrs..