oh man. brazil actually lost the match against france! lost tat match in bet also. but, the money i won from the eng-por match covered up my loss. so didn't win or lose any money. unlike a few ppl i know who lose until drop pants. oh shit man. i think i am hooked onto gambling. but i only bet a small sum k.

went to play pool with yz today. he damm tulan also lah. dunno why, just couldn't concentrate on the game. just played damm bad today. and yz hit the white ball out of the table so many damm times. i did also. i don't know what's with me today also. seems like there are many thoughts in my mind. perhaps it is the dread of going back to work tmr. gonna be busy period again. lots of things that i did not clear last week have to be done. new things coming up to tackle. still 5 months to go, yet it looks so long... i feel like the closer the ord, the more i think about it, the more i want it to come. perhaps this is like burdening me. i keep thinking abt what to do after ord. go holiday? go where? find job? do what job? learn driving? sch or private? what to do in nus? stay hall? sch fees? money? i just realised that there are so many things to think about after i ord, esp uni. talking abt fees, it gonna be quite a headache. i want to do so many things, but circumstances forbid me from doing so. headache headache. 船到桥头自然直. let wait till the time come then i think about it.

i can't sleep again..