Yeah. Another week have passed. This week, as usual lah, all lessons lessons lessons. got practical test on thu. have to do all the bandaging, burns, haemorrhage. luckily they gave me the injuries that i am confident of. then there was IV on fri, which turned into disater. tat 'dear' buddy of mine, dunno what happened to him, made me suffer 2 IV, and both resutled in haematoma, where the area on both my hands were swelled up, the left hand one being worse. but the IV session was indeed very rushed cause there was a CO talk coming up later tat day, which is to talk about the death cases in SAF in the past month. there have been 5 deaths in SAF in just one month, which is like one per week. It was indeed shocking to hear tat people had died, esp one after another in weeks. i think it might have caused some worries among the people and tat he kept stressing that the death has nothing to do with the system of SAF, and that the deaths are all caused by human factors. Perhaps some sort of curse has hit the SAF and i certainly hope there wld be no more of such cases. It has also remined me to learn my stuff properly and not to be some fucked up medic in future. talking abt fucked up, my IV skills still sucks. if i am given a hand with obvious vein, i can do it, but if given a vein that i cannot see properly, i wld be damm worried. my topo skills still sucks, and i always need guidance to find the vein. think the patients kena by me next time can call themselves damm suay.

another big hoha case this week would be the NKF saga. I had always think that NKF is being to commercialised and the way it had asked for donation is too aggressive. seeing the way cao qi tai is 'begging' for donations just simply turns me off. not that we shouldn't help these needy patients, but i can't stand his way of asking for money. now that the truth is out, with NKF citing false claims, many people would naturally feel they have been cheated, including me. In fact, i too agree that durai's pay is too freaking high, and wat's up with that 12 months bonus?? What i feel is that if he is really out to help these patients, would he require such a big pay?? such a big bonus?? these money can be channeled to the needy. not tat he doesnt' deserve a high pay (he is the CEO) after all, but a 12 months bonus (of such a great amt of money) is just absurd. now that people are asking for their money back, i also wonder the intention of the donors. do people donate just for the sake of the prizes or are they really willing to help the needy. so it is back to the topic on the way they generate donations. by using prizes to attract calls, they seem to be telling the users "come, call this number and you will stand to win whatever whatever whatever..." i wonder if people really do know the significance of their donation. I dare to say if i do donate, it would always be right from my heart, to help the needy, and not for the sake of the prize. the prize is just a bonus, which i strongly believe i dun have the luck to get it. Helping others is always good, esp when there are so many people out there with lives much worse than me. it is like CIP, i never did CIP for the sake of getting the hours, but i did it for the sake of helping others. i would have wanted to take part in more of such jobs, but shortage of time has prevented me from doing so. i admit i am selfish, i still want some time to myself, so i had never sort of sacrificed my remaining free time to help out, but deep down inside me, i wanted to help out. it is a conflicting feeling. now that the organisation is given a fresh start, i hope things would get better. it is true that they said the needy still need our help and our donations are still needed. but i hope the organisations could have asked for donations in a more rationale manner.