finally i am in the mood to make a decent entry. just had a very very nice sleep. i still love the bed at home. indeed, i miss home a lot after going to ns. now it has become like a hotel to me, where i just come home to sleep for one nite, and the next day, before i knew it, i have to go. i just watched a show on how ppl sent keiko, the whale in the movie Free Willy, back to his home, the seas off iceland. it made me feel so much abt home. i had always look forward to leading a life overseas all by myself, being independent and so on. but now i am thinking, am i gonna survive? physically yes. emotionally, perhaps a no.

i just looked at my expenses this month and holy shit, i spent quite a bomb on music cds. esp now with the china import cd that are much more cheaper than the local ones. in just a week, i had bought 3. u know, when things are cheaper, u tend to buy more and end up spending lots more money. but i won't feel good if i dun buy. haiz. just have to cut down on expenses elsewhere, esp now i wun have much chance to spend money except on weekends. the FIR cd is just simply great! i just love their genre of music. it is like a mix between rock and slow songs, and i wld say rather unique. just couldn't stop listening to them. and then there is ah sang, another cd i bought. her music is those slow and dreamy type. just perfect for listening when i am alone and sort of seeking some solace. and i was rather glad that she handled sarah mclachlan's angel well, though i feel like something is still not there. truly one strongly recommended album that is kind of underrated. much better than some songs like cyndi's honey that get more and more irritating the more i listen to it. haha. and now jolin just came out with a new song, ye man you xi. it is kind of like kan wo 72 bian, where she takes on a rather special type of music. but i find the song a bit of like acting cute or rather, i dunno how to describe it. dunno why, somehow i sort of enjoy it.

and i was was surfing around and chanced upon memoirs of a geisha movie. it shld be coming up in dec this yr. would be looking forward to it. i finished the book a few ago and i was like so mesmerised by the story. at first, i had thougt it was a true story, someone narrating the story, but after reading the acknowledgement, i author said the story of nitta sayuri is actually a fiction. i feel cheated, but the author is able to make the whole story look so real. it has made me look deeper into the life of a geisha. initially, i also had the perception that geisha are prostitutes, but after reading, i realise they are not. but i still wondered, how do they draw the line between a geisha and a prostitute. like in the book, geisha sell their virginity for money. i wonder if real geisha does that. the book mentions that they are kept women, where their expenses are being paid by their danna. at some point through the story, i wonder if geisha themselves are happy with the type of life they are leading. and the book had gave me an insight into japanese culture. most people are facinated with japan modern culture, their technology, their fashion, their music and of course their porn (ok, it sounds crude, but it is quite true), but not many wld look into their rich tradition. and the movie gonna star zhang ziyi, michelle yeoh and gong li. 3 beautiful chinese actress. definitely a must watch i suppose.

ok. enough crap. got to book in in a few hrs time. ultra sianz.